Thank you, let me explain that for you.Mister X wrote: Sun Nov 02, 2025 2:55 pm Thanks for this wonderful story. I like how you jump back and forth between the present and Lizzy's memories. The different colours help with that. However, I didn't quite understand why you wrote some sentences in both colours and used alternating red and white letters in others.
The closer Lizzy gets to her orgasm, the more do thememory start to overlap. At first, these are still two separate experiences. But the longer this goes on, the more do they overlap and what she feels turns into a whiplash of sensations and emotions she can't separate anymore. Take the sentence:
Her begging him to stop is her memory she's reexperiencing. That is what the color indicates. An the "him" she's begging to stop, is the rapist in er memory, not Richard. He's just doing what she asked him to do and has no idea what's going on. And in this sentence here:One moment, she was moaning ecstatically into Richard’s ears, the next she begged him to stop with pained whimpers.
The distinction between present and memory has completely collapsed. Only the words "pleasure" in white and "fear" in red are clearly attributed.The overwhelming mix of pleasure and fear made her cry. Tears were streaming down her face.
Basically, it's meant to show how the memory of her trauma turns from something she consciously remembers into something that takes over the moment for her. And the sequence ends with her mind temporarily shutting out like it did back then.
I hope that makes sense.